How could you think,
That I think about you?
After all the pain
And what you put me through.
How could you think,
That I still longed for your touch?
When all you did was claw my heart out
And hurt me so much.
How could you think,
That I still wanted to be by your side?
Knowing you never were tying to help me
And only made me want to die.
How could you think….,
That's it, You never really thought
Because if you remember correctly
I'm the one who cut you off!!!
Staring at the stars
Clouds between my toes,
Wishing you'll be mine forever
But no one really knows.
Floating up so high
A new form of awakening,
Feeling what real love is
And not regretting a thing.
Hoping that you see
That I'd be lost without you,
You're my one and only cuddle buddy
And I hope you feel the same too.
The stars say you're the one
That's how I got so high,
But up here I'm missing you
In this dark blue lonely sky.
If These Walls Could Talk by Fallen-Skye, literature
Literature
If These Walls Could Talk
I feel violated,
Guys are so overrated.
I was too trusting,
He was just lusting.
I can't think straight,
I'm under a huge weight.
He went too far,
This will form a new scar.
My rhymes are all scrambled,
My heart he has mangled.
My boyfriend won't even help,
He thinks I should deal with this myself.
Sleep cures everything,
Everything will disappear in my dreams.
Now I'll just close my eyes,
Lock my door and say my goodbyes.
But he could still unlock it from the other side!,
Hurry get something heavy to block it and hide!
There's no one here to comfort me,
I'm doomed to this fate can't you see??
He's coming I can hear him, c
I wish I could run my hands through your hair
And stare into your eyes,
Wrap my arms around you
And tell you everything will be fine.
I wish I could kiss your lips
And pull you close,
Gently rub your back
To comfort the one I love most.
I wish I could take your pain
And dry away your tears,
Cause in my heart I know
That I'll be here for you through the years.
But I can only wish
Because in truth that's all I can do,
And you don't know how much it hurts
Not being able to hold and comfort you
So my final wish is that
In my words you see,
That if I could take the pain I would
And at your side I'd be.
Let's fast-forward now,
Twelve years down the road,
I'm even more grown up
But I've lessened up the load.
I'm away at college
Living on my own,
Taking care of myself
Far away from home.
I'm gunna live my life
Not grow up too fast,
No children in my future
For they're already in my past.
Maybe I'll get married
Or enjoy the single life,
Just living the easy way
Accepting each accomplishment without strife.
I'll do some crazy things
Enjoy being a kid,
Doing things I'd wished I had
And now I can say I did.
My mother still goes out
And does some childish things,
But I'm just glad I've found myself
And I can finally spread
Laying on the ground,
Grass between my toes,
Contemplating life
And picking at my nose.
Growing up so fast
At only six years old,
Taking care of the house
And doing what I'm told.
Watching the fluffy clouds
As they float across the sky,
Listening to the children giggle
As they rush on by.
They don't have to do
Half the things I must,
I scramble to my feet
Causing a cloud of dust.
I finish cooking dinner
And cleaning up the mess,
Just in time for mom to come home
To gorge herself and rest.
Later on that night
She goes out with friends,
Leaving me to clean up and wonder
When does my childhood begin?
I open my eyes
And see you sleeping next to me,
I cuddle closer
And listen to you breathe.
I lay my head on your chest
Listen to your heart beat,
Right here in this moment it's so pefect
I couldn't imagine another place I'd want to be.
You stir a little
And wrap your arms around me,
I feel so safe and warm
Wanting never to leave.
The moonlight shines in
through the slits in the shades,
I watch it dance acrosss your skin
As my conciousness fades.
Spinning, twisting in a cloud of swelled emotion,
Not knowing where to turn or where to place your devotion.
Feeling the world around you grow smaller with each breath you take,
How do you know what you feel is real or fake?
Daring to push the limits of your perception,
But will this deadly move lead to your own deception.
Feeling ill from the pressure of choice,
But your still so scared to use your own voice.
Who to tell and who to keep in the dark,
Though you know the answer with each trembling spark.
Feeling your heart bleed for someone long lost,
Not knowing if your decision will be worth its cost.
How do you know who to turn
Feeling your heart ripped from inside,
Wishing so hard that you would just hurry up and die.
But dying is a scary thing,
and you sew yourself up and hide the strings.
You bury the matches and hide the evidence,
And calm everyone with a heavy sedative.
You make it look like it was all a lie,
But you still die slowly on the inside.
I wish I could get my feelings straight and love you truely,
But my hearts still bleeds, b/c I love her fully.
You are the best thing that has ever come into my life,
You make me happy and help me do what's right.
That's what I believe scares me to death,
Because then I just sit and wait for you to beco
Lost Love -11:30 Thoughts- by Fallen-Skye, literature
Literature
Lost Love -11:30 Thoughts-
I love you..
You made me who I really am,
Who I'm dying to be again...
The person I was meant to be,
and I'm doing all I can to have you,
but no one seems to give a damn.
And I'm lost in these clouds of confusion,
That tear me apart inside and out,
And make me choose who I need the most,
But in the end I'm afraid it will all be a illusion.
I'm terrified of living my life with out you,
Of you going away and finding someone,
Someone who will treat you right... unlike me,
And someone who will be nothing but true.
I don't want to loose you, but I'm the one to blame,
I walk in circles thinking about what we were,
what we could of a
I close my eyes and all I see are yours,
The ones I fell in love with so long ago,
I didn't expect to fall for them so quickly,
And now that I've ruined everything we've said our goodbyes.
But there's one thing I should tell you,
Though I ended things so long ago I still stare into your eyes,
But I try hard not to show,
What I know now can only be true.
You can see the truth if you look in my eyes,
That I can't believe I let you go,
when all I want is to hold you,
But there's something I should have told you, but I was stupid and said my goodbyes,
I was stupid and young when I let you go because,
Now I'm longing for just one more
I love you, I can't help it,
this must sound stupid,
but it's the truth and I hate myself for it.
How am I supposed to focus when
I know I made such a big mistake,
I had you, you were mine, when I
broke up with you it tore you apart,
time after time.
But then I'd miss you
and come back, not thinking
of anyone but myself.
I was selfish and now
I'm paying for it every time
I look into your eyes.
I long for your touch and
I long to kiss you.
We could just lay there and
not make a sound as long
as I had you in my
arms, I'd feel whole again.
I'm missing my other half,
my better half, who knows
the difference between righ
How do you describe,
What you try to hard to bury inside.
I love you and I can't help it,
And in my arms is where I know you fit.
I can't help how I feel about you,
And in your heart you know that it's true.
I don't want to hurt you anymore,
Cause in the end both our hearts will be sore.
So, please try and bear w/ me as I try to figure out,
What this complicated life is all about.
Because I know in my heart I am in love with you,
And I can only hope that you still love me too.
So Please don't stray while my heart is unfolding,
Because in the end who knows who I'll be holding.
Born without reason,
Hurting the people you love without reason,
Trying to figure out who you are without reason,
And why, please tell me why you're leaving.
Changing who you are with the seasons,
Loving someone new with the seasons,
Tearing apart what you hold true with the seasons,
And why, please tell me why you're leaving.
Becoming who you are while deceiving,
Loving someone you shouldn't while deceiving,
Destroying the one you love the most while deceiving,
And why, please tell me why you're leaving.
For in the end you'll be full of reasons
that have added up over the seasons
about how I've been deceiving you
and that..
My heart lies alone in the center,
Am I gay or straight... And does it really matter?
It beats for her, but belongs to him,
In this moment it could go either way.
I'm left to hope I will choose the right path,
The path I will take for the rest of my life.
The question still remains....
Why does it have to be like this?
Why do I have to choose?
Shouldn't I just know...?
Where is my instruction manual that tells
how I'm supposed to operate... gay or straight?
And that still remains the problem doesn't it?
In who's hand does my heart fit?
And will my heart go towards the rainbow...
or choose dull and dark....
So it's left alone
Have you ever felt your heart stop beating...?
Not the good way when you find love when meeting...
But when you hurt and are dealt the pain twice back...
And then you realize that what you thought was truth wasn't really fact...
Listen up so this never happens to anyone again...
Cause in truth once you've done this you'll never have the trust of your friends...
You try to breathe, but the breaths aren't there..
And you find yourself gasping, gasping for more air...
But your lungs have turned black and shriveled like your heart...
And no matter how hard you try you're forced to watch your world fall apart..
For your eyes are still op
Deadly Knot of Lust or True by Fallen-Skye, literature
Literature
Deadly Knot of Lust or True
Fighting, the sin of my upbringing,
Causing scars from the depths of your needing.
But who's to say I need you like you need me,
For in the end maybe I just need to be free.
I've been counting the hours since I've seen you last,
And in truth maybe you're better off in my past.
But that's not what I want, Not either of us,
Though what am I supposed to do with such a loss of trust.
Words of authors old and new ripple threw my brain,
And the songs that I hear drive me insane.
I can't ignore the passions lust or true,
And I can't get over, over you.
Can I spend the rest of my days with only one man?
I suppose it's possible though my
Took a trip to Florida for NAVC the North American Veterinary Convention for a week and I'm finally home, well back at college. I'm so happy being "home" with my bf and school, I love school and learning more about the things I love. I wrote two poems while in florida, one is called Missing You which I put up and the other is in a notebook that I left back home, which really makes me sad, but I'm gunna have my mom ship it to me, so I can put it up on here....
I'm so happy and everything in my life seems to be going in the right direction. I have tons of friends at my college and we do some stupid things lol, but all in all I'm happy. I've never been so completely happy before, I'm in love with my boyfriend and he's just amazing. I'm happy to finally be away from home, b/c I think the stress there was just consuming me to the point that I couldn't focus on anything else. It's just amazing how things work out in the end, though I can't wait to go home in 7 days!! I miss my dog and cat... *sighs* but I will be back in hell, but I get to spend time w/ all my family and I can't wait!!!...
Finally